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Chronicles of an perpetually anxious person part 1

As I was growing up, I always thought my feelings of inadequacy would just dissipate when I became an adult. My anxious thoughts would go away.  my thoughts would (and still do) race along the lines:  if I'm making the right decisions about my life. how am I being perceived? Will this decision of mine affect others in a negative way? Am I enough? Am I doing enough for myself or for others? Why can't I take your pain away? What am I doing incorrectly or wrong? When will I be enough?  Although I've gotten better, there are moments in my life like recently that those thoughts race through my mind. I've come to realize that I get into these "ruts" when I'm emotionally burnt out with life. I often want to "run away" from my problems life can throw my way when I get like this. I can't do that forever. So here I am, writing it out, hoping that my " I'm enough and I'm adequate cup" will be filled with something positive in my life a