Hannah's blog

 Over the past 4 to 5 months, I've come to realize I have always had a GARBAGE relationship with food. It's like a bad, no good, toxic relationship that's followed me my entire life. I can't seem to get rid of this toxic relationship because it's me. I'm the toxic one with food.  My choices and bad relationship with food stems from anxiety and the need to control because I feel like I have no control. So food becomes my coping mechanism. Mentally feel bad?  Well, I'll eat bad to combat my mind, so in the end I feel even worse, AND that means my weight fluctuates.  I struggle to change. Change is hard for me EVEN WHEN I KNOW it's going to be a good change. I hope to change my habits little by little. Work on my anxiety and overcome my eating habits that don't benefit me in a good way. I genuinely DON'T want to live this way; I just don't know how to change by myself. For myself. And not feel so overwhelmed.  I chose to share this because I...

 The holidays are here. They stress THE HECK out of me every year. I'm frozen in anxiousness, and tend to be short with everyone I love. Although I've gotten better at preparing for then, oh my heck, November and December always stess me in mentally, spiritually, and physically.  I know I have everything I need and everything I ever wanted, so just putting that out there. So my worrying and anxiety stem from, "am I doing enough? Am I serving where needed? Are they getting the best of me?" To add on top, people are just CRANKY this time of year, and it's because o see people being so materialistic, and wanting to "appear better off", whereas I'm sitting here wondering, "do I need to be doing this? Am I doing enough?"  I mean, maybe or maybe not, but in the end, I'm usually so frozen, I appear even more so "uncaring". I get so caught up in my own thoughts and my confidence wavers to the point where I don't know where to star...

 It's #selfcaresunday, y'all. I got myself #flowers because #flowersmakemehappy. I know I'm #blessed, but there are days and weeks that I'm #stressed, #depressed, or #anxious. My reason? I haven't been able to #excercise, go to the #gym, or #run in over a week because of an injury and I honestly hate it. It helps with my mental state of mind so much in such a positive way. So I got myself flowers today to perk my mood up. What are you doing today to take care of yourself?  #shop my #online #store here:  http://go.youravon.com/3mvt29 join my  #bossbabe #community here: http://go.youravon.com/3mvt28 My #blog: http://go.youravon.com/3mvt2b #sharethelove #summer #getoutside #playhard #girlboss #makeup #cosmetics #buildyourempire  #summer2021 #girlpower #consistency #girlboss #hustle  #support #sunday #sundayfunday #weekendvibes #Avon #mentalhealth

  Here are some #ThursdayThoughts for you guys. I recently read the quote, "the hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn." The hardest thing I've come to learn in my personal life is that sometimes i burn the wrong bridges, and cross the wrong ones. But I'm learning, and the #journey isn't always easy, and often hard. I'm hopful #july will help #buildbridges to some of my #goals I have, and much needed #support from you guys, the universe, or whatever it is that can help. What are some of your goals or #manifesting #goals this month? I want to hear from you! #share and #shop my #online #store here: http://go.youravon.com/3mvt29 Want to join my #bossbabe #community ? Click here: http://go.youravon.com/3mvt28 My #blog : http://go.youravon.com/3mvt2b #sharethelove #summer #getoutside #workhard #playhard #girlboss #makeup #Avon #cosmetics #buildyourempire   #summer2021 #monday #girlpower #consistency ...

 The only #motivationmonday I have for you today is that sometimes it's hard to have #motivation. But I'm trying to be more consistent and have #selfdiscipline on a day to day basis despite not always feeling motivated.  #shop my #online #store here: http://go.youravon.com/3mvt29 Want to join my #bossbabe #community? Click here: http://go.youravon.com/3mvt28 My #blog: http://go.youravon.com/3mvt2b #sharethelove #summer #getoutside #workhard #playhard #girlboss #makeup #Avon #cosmetics #mondaymotivation  #summer2021 #monday #girlpower #consistency #girlboss #hustle Xoxo,  Hannah's blog. 

As I was growing up, I always thought my feelings of inadequacy would just dissipate when I became an adult. My anxious thoughts would go away.  my thoughts would (and still do) race along the lines:  if I'm making the right decisions about my life. how am I being perceived? Will this decision of mine affect others in a negative way? Am I enough? Am I doing enough for myself or for others? Why can't I take your pain away? What am I doing incorrectly or wrong? When will I be enough?  Although I've gotten better, there are moments in my life like recently that those thoughts race through my mind. I've come to realize that I get into these "ruts" when I'm emotionally burnt out with life. I often want to "run away" from my problems life can throw my way when I get like this. I can't do that forever. So here I am, writing it out, hoping that my " I'm enough and I'm adequate cup" will be filled with something positive in my life a...

 January 2012: "I'm home from peru! It was amazing. I wish we (my mom and I went together) were about to do more! (I do want to go back for more still) It is so beautiful here in cusco, peru! Way more than I expected! The mountains and hills are so green. The cathedrals are gorgeous. We are (mom and I) are in a tour group of 14 0r 15. All of us are leaving tomorrow morning at 7:30 to go to the sacred valley and Tuesday we start the hike up to MACCHU PICCHU! I am SO excited. This is way better than I could have imagined! Mom and I went through the Santo Domingo cathedral and it was great to see. Spain built over an incan temple, and you can tell which was built by the incans and which parts were built by Spain. There are so many stray dogs roaming around. I would totally take half them home with me if I could! It's also hard for me NOT to touch them!it really is! Our tour started yesterday. We went to the sacred valley yesterday and everything was so beautiful. We saw quite...

 I've always had these "life goals" to try and practice daily, and I feel like i stuck to this one for a while, got out of the habit, and I'm trying to do better, but I wrote this "goal" down 11 and a half years ago, and it's still applicable. I wrote, "I came to the realization the other day. I cash really attest a person's life in a positive way. I can set and be a great example for so many people. I can really do so much in someone's life (good or bad). I can be an example someone NEVER had. The quote I find that really lifted me up (because I realized, well, not too many people did this for me), could be reversed and make it real for someone else. I think I'd get just as much as I receive. "You never know when a moment and a few sincere words can have an impact on a life" and "be nice to people on the way up, you may need them on the way down." I ended with, 'that is so true! I love whoever reads this!'  H...

#lifeupdate and LOOK, I DO wear the #makeup I sell! Hah hah! I recently made the decision to leave my #fulltimejob, WITH NO BACKUP PLAN. I do not recommend this course of action, but my #mentalhealth and #physicalhealth needed a reset despite no backup plan. 100% worth it. I've applied to schools in hopes to go after something I've always wanted to do (help make follow through on this once guys). I also have had to rely heavily on me #working with #Avon. I have to rely on #wordofmouth, me pushing myself to get out there and seek #help and #support when needed. I've also been working on my #blog as well. I want this #change, but I couldn't and wouldn't be able to do this without the support my #family, #friends, AND YOU GUYS.  This was long winded, I know, but I appreciate you guys!  #shop, #share, #read all here: http://go.youravon.com/3n6kbw http://go.youravon.com/3n6kbx

I  cannot reccomend family history enough you guys. I know it can be really hard if your family didn't or doesn't have the resources to keep track of things. Especially if there's a genocide, deep family secrets (more often than you think), slavery, and so much more. But I say, start with you. And just you. Write your memories down. I got 2 paragraphs into my great grandma's story, and surprised myself by getting emotional. Aren't grandma's supposed to live forever? 😭😭 once again, this doesn't apply to everyone. I think I'm finally processing the fact I didn't get to go to my grandma's funeral due to covid-19 this year. Family history is more than just health reasons. You get stories, and deeper understanding on why your family was the way your family was. Quirks, strengths, all of it. Start bettering yourself for future generations (if you so choose to have kids) or friends kids. Write your story out people. Mistakes, ups, downs, achievements,...

I have yet to write a post this year, and it's almost March! I think it would be a good time to put out my goals of this year, and with my birthday in a week, I figured this would be a good time to do it! Goals of 2020 (but in no means in order, and I will be ok if it doesn't happen this year. I am putting it out in the world so it CAN happen!) SAVE MONEY! travel to a place I have been (affordable). Write in this blog MORE. I need to get my experiences out there. GET HEALTHIER THROUGH DIET. Join my journey as I hope to write and document it. Set up an Avon get together, and hopefully make that part successful. Sign up for Dog grooming seminars. GO BACK TO SCHOOL. Relearn an instrument.  Will this all happen this year? Maybe not, but one little baby step at a time, and I am sure I will get there!  xoxo, Hannah's Blog

Yep. That's right. I am an autistic dog groomer! I was diagnosed at a fairly young age, and was determined to become a veterinarian. I have loved, and will probably always love MOST animals. (I am terrified of most snakes, and most rodents. Don't know why...) I am not on the path to be a veterinarian anymore, but I have been grooming dogs for a while now, and wanted to share some  perspective that I gained this past month that that made it kind of difficult for an aspie like me, and how I have realized that I NEED TO ASK FOR HELP. (us aspies are stubborn, am I right?) Over the past few years, I have been in the "corporate" world of grooming salons, but I also have experience in the small shops as well. However, with how things work, I need to be in the "corporate" side, and let me tell you. It is HARD. It is far more customer service based on my end than it would be, say, at a small shop where you have receptionists. As someone who has such bad anxiety and...

I've been living in this apartment for a year and a half, and I have been living in only half my room and no living room.    why? Because the ceiling caved in! How cool, huh? Not only that, but they have to cut part of the roof, and it's needed to be completely fixed: the roof itself. I've only lived like this since may, and they (hoa) completely refuse to communicate with us, or fix it. Come along, and join me in this music called, "windy, rainy, and a tarp". Xoxo, Hannahs blo .

This is Lucy just loving her new christmas gift: a llama toy. She's also throwing it off the bed for fun and it's hilarious to watch. If the video won't work, click here:  https://youtu.be/VXYmYX0uOpc Xoxo, Hannah's blog. 

Growing up, getting the help I needed for my disability was readily available. I was always under the illusion that college would be great for people with disabilities, that people won't discriminate during the application or hiring process. I quickly learned that that is not the case. At all. Once I turned 18, the real world hit me, and hit me hard. To get the help I needed in school/ college I had to jump through hoops, and go through confusing (for me) mazes just to receive minute help. It was extremely overwhelming, and a lot of work, and because of that, I did not complete college  I would love to go back, and have assistance on so many things. However, that's not usually the case for adults. Another hard decision I have come to in my life is to either lie, or completely not say, is that I never say I have a disability. I have lost opportunities, jobs, and so much more because jobs, businesses, places of employment see the disability, and not me. Which means, I have be...

Nightly shenanigans of Lucy and titus. Hannah's blog.

Winifred was the best dog I think I ever owned. She was obnoxious, a barker, a bee catcher, a lizard hunter, a simple dog, sometimes decided she was going to take on a big dog, but she was the best with all people and kids. In fact, she was an escape artist to go see her favorite people. She was a digger, and would find any hole to get through the fence just to go see the kids and people. Oh, and she LOVED cats. Winnie never really understood why cats didn't like her.  My sister got Winifred in Florida under the pretense that was she was an entirely different breed than she was. She was a Chihuahua/ Pomeranian/ and some American Eskimo. Most people hear those breeds and assume that they're just ankle biters for anything. She only did that with some dogs, but for the most part, no one was a stranger. Winnie would gladly let a burglar in if it meant she got belly rubs and a treat. She also had no problems walking into other people's houses and making herself comfortable. P...